Poems That Follow Us

Poems That Follow Us
By: Sara Ries Dziekonski
5/7/21
Blog #23
Once an idea for a poem blooms, I generally finish the poem within a couple of weeks but sometimes I need to live more—for months, or even years—before a poem (or manuscript) has had the chance to really come together. In these cases, I need to have more experiences to reach a greater depth and understanding of the poem.
 
When a poem-idea arrives, I write it hurriedly in my journal to get down all the pieces of the poem that the inspiration reveals. Sometimes I can’t write quickly enough and some of it gets lost, but these are pieces that follow us. (More on this later in this paragraph.) After the idea is jotted down, I sculpt the poem for hours at my computer using Microsoft Word. For days I revise it every chance I get until it feels ready. Then I take it to my writing group for suggestions for how to make it better. (These sharp writers always have plenty to say, no matter how polished I think my poem is.) But what happens when a poem does not come together in that satisfying way even after several sittings of revision plus a workshop or two? It sits in a Word document for months, or years maybe. I used to worry that if I didn’t write a poem idea down or if I let an unfinished poem sit for too long I would lose it and then it would never really make it into the world. I remember a professor in grad school told us not to worry, that the poems we really need to write will follow us, and keep coming back, and I have found this to be true.

painting of a writer with writer’s block by my brilliant friend, Michael Parke. My husband and I recently painted the dining room wall behind it and I am excited to make this my new writing spot. The passion red color and the painting beg for poems to be released

 
I started writing “The Football” a couple years ago when I was pregnant and it followed me to after my son was born. It was a poem I couldn’t finish until I lived through having a son and the last four lines end with the part about my son. I could never get the ending right before my son came into my life (even after several workshops and many hours of revision) and now I know that I had to live more to see how the poem would end. This poem will be in my new manuscript I am creating during this grant period for Creative Pinellas on motherhood and aging. Here it is:
 
The Football
The pigskin was grass-stained and scuffed.
Mom would launch Bedtime, from the doorway;
I wanted to chuck it back to her,
remain muddy.
 
My brother longed for a brother
so I learned to throw a spiral
that could knock teeth out
with an arm that got called
Big
too many times—
 
I’d been saying it to myself already.
I was never a skinny girl
but I throw a spiral
that could knock glasses off.
 
Even today,
I send footballs screaming
through the air. People say
Who threw that?
like it must have been done by a man.
I knock the grins off their faces, say,
 
Me
and flex my arms I no longer
wish to be thin;
I need muscles
to swim my glorious miles
and to scrub past meals off plates
when I finally get around to the dishes.
Muscles
to haul buckets of pens and journals to my classes
and boxes of books each time my address changes.
These arms
lift my son above my head so he can be
the endpoint
of a perfect spinning spiral.
 
–published in Neptune Magazine, which features St. Pete poets and art and was created by the wonderful Denzel Johnson-Green.
 
Thanks for reading!
Sara

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